Choices

Assalamualaikum!
halooooo people! :D

Okay, breaks really kill me. Plus, there will be no school after this. So, what should I do?? I have packed all my books and for sure, I will not open it in this ‘waiting’ period. I’m afraid I’ll suffer break down. Huarghh! So, I decide to share some knowledge from my reading. Actually, I’ve done this topic before in my trial essay. But here, I’ve edited it a bit and add some more bullets for you. :)

Choices and options, basically it is the same thing. We never can get away from it. It is spice of life. Facing with options really drives me crazy. It makes me suffer headache because I, and surely, everyone, want to choose the best and never want to regret the choices we’ve made afterwards. But when you are in desperate situation and the time not allow you to sit back and relax to think, all the choices seems right to you. And because of that, without proper way of dealing with options, you might take a wrong decision.

Some people might say that it is okay for us to be wrong sometimes, but for me, while we’re given a brain to think and with some knowledge that Allah gives you, why don’t you decide the right thing? Yes, it is true we are not perfect, blablabla.. But I think it is right to say it when you have tried your best and still, you failed to achieve what you expect. Don’t you realise how choices can determine your future? For example, you choose to be a robber instead of banker; you are changing your life! Okay, I know I’ve made CHOICES sounds creepier than you ever thought. So, how to deal with it?

First of all, before you choose something, try to think how it will affect your life? Think how it will bring good and bad for you. Follow your instinct, some people say. But do instinct tells you what to do or what you should do? Can you tell that your instinct not affected by your emotion? Okay peeps; I can’t deny ‘follow your heart’ thing. But it is for the last way to choose. By following your heart, you will be satisfied to whatever circumstances wait for you in front. But the first step you should do is, list out the pro’s and cons for each of your choices. From there, you will see which one is the best for you. 

Next, think about how your decision will affect your love ones, especially your family because they are always comes first. Your choices maybe can make you happy, but do they? Can you be happy on other people sufferings? If you are selfish type of person, alright then, you can leave this step behind. But if you are not, so here’s what you can do. Sit down and have a really nice conversation with your family. Don’t rush to the point but explain your situations and state the choices you are given. Then, tell them which choices you are more into and ask for their opinion. It is okay if their opinion is completely different from yours. Try to open your mind and think rationally. Don’t think that there should be only one people that are right. It can be two people with right opinion. So, absorb it and reconsider. Then, add this to your list.

Have you reached a point which you start acting like an insane person? Hahaha. :D alright, you still cannot make up your mind? This is because you’ve missed this point, seek from THE GREATEST.
yeah.. of course, you shouldn’t leave this point. He is The Greatest, He knows everything. Both your physically and mentally. He knows what is good for you. He decides everything. So, for Muslims, we have two rakaat ‘istikharah’ prayer. It is always work out very very well! Istikharah prayer is when you leave all good and bad to Allah after dealing with choices.  Never doubted istikharah because after doing it, Allah will enlighten the right path for you in many ways. It can be from dreams, a relaxing state of mind or also when your heart feels more into one decision and you feel happy with it. :)

Okay, so I rest my case. Here I had given you some steps to choose. For me, it works out in some situation. For you, I guess you have to try it for yourself then. :)
hmm, some people hate choices. For them, it drives them crazy and forces them to choose in between. I don’t think it is completely true. In some situation, pick one is not the answer. Perhaps, you can combine it or forget all the options and try to sort things out in a better way. Choices and options also are not bad thing could ever happen to you. You may not realise but the way you’re dealing with it can change your state of mind. Plus, taking risk in choosing let you discover what you don’t know and make you think outside the box. Choosing something might cost you tears but we are human beings with limited thoughts, we never know what tomorrow brings. So, just be happy with it as you have tried your best to choose the best for you and others. 

I hope this tips will be helpful to you, not much but a bit will be enough for me. Leave your comments and suggestions below. :)

Dark Side

Dark side?

Woooooooo………. :o hihihikk.. XDD

So? Mesti ade satu attitude buruk korang yang terlintas dalam kepale bile cakap pasal dark side kan? Hahaha.. normal laa tu. Actually manusia nie sangat pandai simpan rahsie bile tang kepentingan diri sendiri. betol kan betol kan? hekhek..
okay, since ‘dark side’ tu jadi rahsie sulit korang, korang mesti wonder ‘kalau orang tahu perangai aku nie orang boleh terima aku ke haa?’ hahaha. Same laa macam I.. haha :DD so I discovered something yang korang boleh buat.

First, terus terang.
Second, let it go.
Third, change.

Yup, first option tu mesti ade orang kate, ‘hang gila ka aku nak p habaq kat marka aku nie kencing malam??’ hakhakhak :DDDD
lek laa der.. tu sebab aku buat 3 options. Yang options pertame tu untuk orang yang rase-rase orang ksygn dye tu boleh terima. Second tu macam samar sikit kan. Actually let it go tu senang. Korang teruskan aje ‘dark side’ korang tu and biarkan orang baru dalam hidup korang tu adapt sendiri. if dye boleh adapt laa.. :D
yang third tu kalau masalah serius sikit macam baran tak tentu hala ke, cemburu buta ke. Change it! Korang sendiri boleh pikir kan benda tu benda tak sihat so why keep it and suruh orang lain terima macam orang lain tu hati batu? Tapi macam kes kencing malam ke hape ke, err..i boleh tolong pesan.. bawak-bawak laa berubat.. :D hewhew.

Like me….. [nie yang korang suke nak dengar pun kan?? :p] aku ade juge dark side yang….emmm….pelik dan mengerikan.. hehehe..
yelaa yelaa.. meh aku share sikit..

#1 HOT-TEMPER.
Ye aku tahu.. tak payah nak gelak-gelak sangat laa. At least, aku mengaku. Hang? :p *muke bengang* yup, aku memang ade attitude nie since….kecik. hahahaha.. sampai adelaa satu hari tu [2 tahun lepas] aku TER-tengking bf aku.. whoa… merajuk tak sudah wooo.. mampuihh aku kering idea nak pujuk. Tapi aku marah tu bersebab okay.. cume tak boleh kawal perasaan je. mane tak nye, waktu tu hari sukan. Penat ape semua then boleh nampak ade awek naik belakang motor dye. Aku punnnn………… hewhew.. [sorry awak! :DD] aku rase sampai arinie dye tak maafkan aku tu..Hekhok :DD tapi sekarang, since tahun nie to be precise, aku macam dah slow. Perasaan yang suke nak marah tu jadi perasaan yang suke nak rase sedih pulak. Tak tahu laa kenape.. sebab ‘dididik’ oleh buah hati aku kott… hakhakhak :DD zzzzzzzzzzzz~~

#2 SUKA LAMBAT.
hahaha.. macam hobi je rasenyee.. hahaha.. bukan hape, aku paling bengang kalau siap awal-awal then cancel. Huisy! Kebengangan nye toksah cerita laa. Boleh merah padam laa muke. -.-‘ so aku betul-betul peruntukkan mase beberape minit sebelum nak pegi mane-mane untuk bersiap. Which kadang-kadang punchline dye tak berape nak kena sampai boleh lambat. Hewhew :DD

Okay, aku share 2 jelaa yee.. hekhek.. yang lain nak simpan untuk bakal hubby I laa u.. tak best laa kalau semua dark side aku semua orang tahu. Nanti takde ape yang misteri lepas kahwin. Hihikk.. :D
nanti tak boleh nak tiru peribadi Nailah Farafishah isteri kesayangan Saidina Uthman. Cite dye, selepas Saidina Uthman syahid, Nailah dipinang oleh lelaki lain tapi dye tolak. Alsannyaa, Nailah taknak kahwin dengan sesiapa sebab taknak ape yang Saidina Uthman tahu tentang peribadinya diketahui orang lain. Hebatnya wanita syurga nie.. :)

That’s it for now, boboiii earthlings! ^.^

Finally!

“Ya Allah, Kau hidupkanlah aku selagi kehidupan itu baik bagiku dan Kau berikanlah aku kehidupan yang baik.
Namun jika kematian itu lebih baik buatku, Kau matikanlah aku dengan husnul khatimah..”

Bismillahirahmanirrahim,
Assalamualaikum…! :DD

Huuu… seronokye dapat ber-beloging balik. Hope-hope adelaa mase nak aktif beloging nie. :) since SPM pun dah habis, Alhamdulillah. If dulu ade target tapi lepas exam dah tak boleh nak target dah. Rase macam was-was je dengan semua paper. Tapi Alhamdulillah, dah cube untuk buat yang terbaik. Rezeki smue ketentuan Allah. Kalau tak capai target, mungkin Allah nak bagi kesenangan ikut jalan jauh. Haiihh.. Allah Maha Mengetahui. :)

MOMENT LAST DAY PAKAI BAJU SEKOLAH

Waktu paper 3 bio tu aku dah mule rasa nervous. Tak tahu laa kenape waktu first day periksa tak rase ape sangat tapi last day tibe2 jantung dupdapdupdap. Alhamdulillah, paper 3 tu tak susah sangat. Allah bagi husnul khatimah sebab yang target tu keluar. I am prepared. :) so aku siap awal. Dah semak berulang-ulang kali sebab takut salah kira or salah buat. Aku tunggu jugak if ade yang nak keluar awal. Tapi budak kelas akaun je yang keluar. Sementara tunggu pengawas kutip kertas, aku tengok kawasan sekolah aku.

Sekolah aku kecik je kalau dibandingkan dengan sekolah-sekolah batang padang yang lain. Boleh kata sekolah aku paling kecik. Yet, mungkin sebab tu laa kitorang rapat. Tak boleh nak lari mane sebab jalan nak pergi sesuatu tmpat tu mungkin ade 2 3 jalan je. dulu, aku pernah tak suke sekolah tu. Sebab waktu darjah 6, cikgu2 sekolah rendah aku semua cakap tu sekolah tak elok. So dari kecik aku dah tanam niat nak sekolah asrama. Tapi rezeki tak menyebelahi aku, aku ngan 5 orang yang dapat 5A stay sekolah DZ. Kitorang rase frust sebab lagi 28 orang yang dapat 5A dah masuk sekolah asrama. [haiihh.. cerita budak-budak :D]

Sekolah nie banyak sejarah. Banyak simpan rahsia aku, banyak simpan kenangan aku. kat situ laa aku belajar kenal kawan, belajar kenal lawan, belajar erti dikhianat, erti jujur, erti sebuah hubungan anak murid dan guru. Kat situ laa aku ‘diasuh’ jadi ‘secretary terhormat’ pada cikgu-cikgu lelaki [katanye] hahaha.. aku takkan lupe dari mane aku datang. Aku akan rindu alam sekolah.

Lepas kertas dah dikutip, airmate jatuh setitik! Cehhhh! Cerita Hindustan betol! Hahahakk.. then keluar dewan, kitorang peluk2 semua. I’m gonna miss them, seriously. Friendship is my biggest treasure. :)
tak pernah expect pun aku akan sayang classmate aku mcm nie sekali. Huihhh.. then kitorang plan nak buat makan2 dekat KFC lepas hantar buku teks. Then…..hmphhh.. haraplaa tak lost contact.

Perancangan after SPM? Kahwin! Hahaha.. terkejut laa tu. haha.. yes, before this ade terpikir nak kahwin awal laa, itulaa inilaa.. but now aku ubah cara pemikiran. Jodoh semua ketentuan Allah. Still. Dia hadir awal ke lambat ke, biarlaa.. bukannye maksud taknak usaha, but I mean usaha yang paling baik aku buat sekarang is to be a solehah. Usia yang ade sekarang aku nak buat macam-macam benda sementara ada waktu. Nak cakap pasal kawen-kawen nie….aishhh.. I malu laa.. entah ade orang nak ke taknak kite tak tahu. Karang cakap besar tengok-tengok takde orang nak pun. Kan maluuuu :DD bhahaha.
lagipun, keperluan seorang muslimah menegakkan agamanye masih menuntut hak. Aku takut kalau aku mati nanti aku tak sempat buat ape-ape untuk Islam. Biar aku menuntut ilmu hingga ke negeri China dulu yeaa :D

Memang, aku pernah dirisik oleh satu keluarga nie. Tapi aku tak rase lelaki tu adalah lelaki yang dicipta untuk aku. family nye memang baik, dia datang dari keluarga yang kawasan perumahan aku nie hormat. Tapi dia nye, secara individunye, aku tak setuju. So, aku fikir aku akan lupekan risikan tu. Tak payah nak pikir banyak-banyak. Dia bukan ‘lelaki itu’. Hehehe. If pun aku ditakdirkan kahwin dalam waktu muda, aku nak lelaki yang betul-betul bertanggungjawab, yang tak mengikut ‘darah muda’, yang soleh.. :) kalau jalan menuju ‘syurga dunia’ tu dipermudahkan dengan hati yang lapang, maknanye Allah dah atur yang lebih baik untuk aku. Dia nak bagi ‘partner’ untuk aku perjuangkan Islam. MasyaAllah, indahnyee... :)
aku tahu, adelaa nanti kawan-kawan aku bagi kad kahwin lepas SPM nie.. takpe-takpe, benda baik. Two thumbs up for you! :)